I should be holding my baby

I lost the 7th in September of this year....I will not loose another!

I have been remiss on my blog..... airing out my hopes, dreams and failures just seemed....painful. It was much better to make self deprecating jokes about my lady parts....and begrudge the belly loveliness that so many women around me had. But something miraculous happened recently! I decided to grow up! Now this does not prevent me from playing in Toys R Us...rollerskating in my house, or just plain old acting like a 2 year old. But it did give me freedom from my angst. This also enables me to actually learn something about all of this.

1. No it isnt fair
2. It is not a right to have a baby
3. Birth is not guaranteed
4. I have no control over this
5. Its ok
6. Joking about strangling yourself with your fallopian tubes may be in good fun,... but gives the wrong opinion
7. Some things will never have an answer
8. Where I had a hope for heaven....I now long for it one day....it is then I will finally see 7 of my children
9. Every moment is a blessing

This moment I claim Victory over all of this.....whether in the face of my miracle baby...or in my newfound peace...either way I win (insert na na na na na )